I've a 9 mnth old daughter. since her brth i cld not enjoy mtherhood?

neither cld i play wth her 'cos if my hsbnd or mther-in-law saw it they wld not like it and smhw take her wth them and kp wth them all the tm.if my baby used to turn her face 2 lk at me,my mthr-in-law turned her face away or took her 2 anthr room.they wnt that baby shld be their's frst then she'll recognise me.i've lost my mthr & nobody frm my side is there wr i cn go.they even wnt 2 feed her & bathe her etc.wn she cries they tl me 2 go away frm there so that they can mk her quiet.many more incidents occur each day & i'm panicked of them. i cnt file divorce 2 as i've nomr 2 go. even my hsbnd is mama's & sis's boy. he doesn't even slps wth me & baby as he'll b dstrbd. pl hlp me or gve me sm guidance.