I Hate My Life - How can I continue living this way?

First off i want to say keep your head up and always be you..So many nights i cry myself to sleep knowing my life is not perfect of how i ever expected it to be. For some reason we are always thrown in the middle of real life disaster that sometimes feels never ending. I know telling your parents might not sit to well with them but you should. they might hate the fact you choose men over women but they will always love you as their son. Even thou it might be really hard just think of the stress it is going to take off of you. Society is sick and twisted and so many people have so much to say because people have learned to judge others to make their selfs happy of feel complete. But you will find love and happiness maybe not tommorow maybe not any time soon. But it is out their and somebody is going to care and love you for you not disabilites. I dont know exactly the pain your going thru but i know that i have had to deal with my own pain and pain is pain no matter who is feeling it. Sometimes with psycholgist it takes a long time to beable to open up, but one day you will be able to. trust me i went like atleast a good 10 times before i even looked her in her eyes. takes things slowly and dont rush yourself into opening up untill your ready. Painkillers can conquer pain sometimes but when its from within you have to dig beyond and pull all your emotions out and start over. Working on making you happy nobody else. But if you ever need to vent you can email me and i can be a pen pal to offer you a friend to talk to.. ride_to_die_4life@yahoo.com